well...
just struck in my mind suddenly a phrase that asked
do you believe that the time passed unconstantly in this world?

it is true that really maybe a split second each year the route of the earth is moving differently. but wat i meant is about the feeling of your own.
from a drama i learn that was said to be when u r being with the person u loved the time u spend will be just a flash, but when you r waiting for the one that u loved its like taking eternally.it is true for some reason i do not unlike dramas in some way it really giving courage to people. eventhough in reality im maybe a total failure.
another thing that i found out is that loving someone is not that easy it needs efford. from the last relationship i have given all i got but it seems that its not enough. comparing to last time i hae improved but it just lack of something and lately one of my fren that i treated her as my sister. since long time ago she spotted me as a lack of efford person in a way means LAZY. gahhh.. am i really so hate troublesome things.
just need to be more hardworking is the last word she said to me and its like a lightbulb suddenly turn on to me. and so on i have been thinking is there anymore things that i should change myself, am i really have those problems.
and anyway those previous blog that i have posted is really when im in a deep mess.
maybe its time to have a change for this blog. so that i can chill myself up when i visit here n relax unlike the last time tied by all the histories.
i will become a man without history then >.<
so long good night.